& he said:

I had a dream about you last night
I dreamed that you were dead
When I woke up I wanted to call
And get it out of my head
But we don't talk anymore
I made sure of that
But I'd give anything to hear your voice
I would do better if I could go back
I'm sorry for your tears
I'm sorry I never told you in all of these years
I didn't leave you like I should
I hope you found someone to love you like I tried to
But never could

I always knew that it wasn't right
To get involved with you
But I never thought that you would fall so fast
Got me to thinkin', what the hell am I gonna do?
But now you seem like you're fine
Like you've moved on with your life
But I'd give anything to talk to you
And tell you I know I didn't treat you right.

xxx Char

I've got you under my skin

I've got you under my skin
I've got you deep in the heart of me
So deep in my heart that you're really a part of me
I've got you under my skin

I try so not to give in
I said to myself this affair, it never will go so well
But why should I try to resist when baby, I know damn well
That I've got you under my skin

I'd sacrifice anything come what might
For the sake of having you near, in spite
Of a warning voice that comes in the night
It repeats, repeats in my ear

Don't you know you fool, you never can win
Use your mentality, wake up to reality
But each time I do, just the thought of you makes me stop just before I begin
Because I've got you under my skin

I would sacrifice anything come what might
For the sake of having you near, in spite
Of a warning voice that comes in the night
It repeats, how it yells in my ear

Don't you know you fool, ain`t no chance to win
Why not use your mentality, get up, wake up to reality
And each time I do, just the thought of you
Makes me stop just before I begin
Because I've got you under my skin

And I like you under my skin

xxx Char

The evil remains

I'm not the same child that I once was
I left my compassion on the side of the road
When I learned the power of ego and confidence,
All to please you
But I'm sure that you regret it now
I'm sure that you regret me now
Because I fucking do
I do
All my desire and all my innocence burned away
Just the evil remains, just the judgements remain
And here I stand king of the mountain, all alone,
Surrounded by pain that I brought on myself

xxx Char

Regret

I shouldn't need to wish that I am all I am not
I shouldn't need to always offer you my thoughts, but I do
And I've opened myself up to the wrong and felt that pain
And I've opened myself all up to you and felt the same
Please don't explain, just let me continue dreaming.
You understand what hurts me but I was the one who made that known
And now it seems my time is over and I need some time alone.
Why must I be affected
By the words of those who know not what they've said?
You're no longer someone I'll remember
But someone I'll regret

xxx Char

Waar ik sta

Ik probeer je te vergeten, maar waar ik ook ben, ik kom je tegen
In m’n gedachte blijf je me achtervolgen, je leeft nog in me
En steeds wanneer ik denk ‘oke nu heb ik jou verbannen'
Krijg ik een smsje ‘lieve schat, ik hou zo van je’
Ik heb een antwoord klaar, twijfel of ik terug zal sturen
Ik vraag mezelf af ‘hoelang gaat deze shit nog duren’
Het slijt met de tijd en ze zeggen dat ik verder kan
Hoe kan ik denken dat ik niet aan jou moet denken dan?
Ik bel je toch weer op om nog een keer je stem te horen
Zeg dat het goed gaat, maar het gaat niet goed, want shit ik ben verloren
Je trekt steeds naar me toe en ik naar jou, wat is dit nou?
Ik kan niet loslaten terwijl ik je niet vast kan houden
Als dit zo doorgaat word ik gek ik moet de knoop doorhakken
Maar denken dat je van me houdt maakt het zo lastig als een motherfucker
Moet ik je nooit meer zien? Ik zou het echt niet weten
Maar ik probeer je te vergeten...

xxx Char

I'm taking these Polaroids

Seven A.M. and I wake to find an empty spot where you'd lay
and I think that its a bad start to this Saturday.
You'll use a copy-cat reason for your delay
and I'll nod my head and smile.

I know around ten that you'll finally decide to roll in
and your give me that little wink & small grin
and I'd let it go again but not this time..

I'm taking these Polaroids so you'll remember
the way it was before you left me for her.
And with each flash comes a sweet, sweet memory.
I hope that when she does you wrong you think of me.
Yea, I hope that she cheats just like you cheat.

It's 7 PM and you're calling saying
"I'm working late, don't wait up for me."
I say I love you and hang up the phone-
it's funny how you think that I don't know... but

I'm taking these Polaroids so you'll remember
the way it was before you left me for her.
And with each flash comes a sweet, sweet memory.
I hope that when she does you wrong you think of me.
Yea, I hope that she cheats just like you cheat.

Yea, you think I'm so clueless & my life would be hopeless without you in it.
I'd write a letter with reason of why I'm better without you, but I don't know where to begin it.
And tomorrow when you come home, your stuff will be stacked and damp with gasoline..
Strike 1, strike 2, strike 3 - you're out, hope you don't miss your things.

xxx Char

Hang in there

Crazy laws

1. In Devon, Texas, it is against the law to make furniture while you are nude.

2. In Oklahoma, you can be arrested for making ugly faces at a dog.

3. In South Carolina it is legal to beat your wife on the court house steps
on Sundays.

4. In New York, the penalty for jumping off a building is: Death. ( Go figure...)

5. In Pennsylvania, it's against the law to tie a dollar bill on a string on the
ground and pull it away when someone tries to pick it up.

6. In California it is illegal to set a mouse trap without a hunting license.

7. In France, it is against the law to sell an "E.T" doll. They have a law
forbidding the sale of dolls that do not have human faces.

8. In Athens, Greece, a driver's license can be taken away if the driver is
thought to be either "poorly dressed" or "unbathed"

9. In the state of Washington, it is illegal to have sex with a virgin under
any circumstances

10. In Florida, it is illegal to fart in a public place after 6 P.M. on Thursdays.

11. In Massachusetts, it is illegal to go to bed without first having a bath.
(However, another law prohibits bathing on Sunday)

12. In Samoa, it's a crime to forget your own wife's birthday...

13. In Salt Lake Country, Utah, it’s illegal to walk down the street carrying a violin in a paper bag

She

she calls him early because she knows he’ll be asleep. she leaves a message after the beep. she says she’s better now but she’s still incomplete. she’s trying hard to make her voice sound soft and sweet.a couple hours pass until he picks up the phone. he wasn’t ready for the shock. he holds his breath, now he plays the message twice and then the dull tone reminds him that she’s not around. its a lonely sound.

xxx Char

One day

There have been lots of cars in my driveway and lots of boys on my couch. I’ve toyed with bad boys, momma’s boys && country boys. I’ve been broken by a few and broken a few myself. I’ve never said " I love you," and I’ve never had the need. I’ve been the rebound, the challenge, the fallback, and the girlfriend. I’ve been the mistake, and the correction. One day someone will love me for what I’ve been and what I am, where I’ve been and where I am. One day. Someone will love me.

xxx Char

Broken

drunk and lovesick

Sing me a song, tell me about
The things you're dealing with lately
I don't understand how you could
Sing to me lies, let them linger
Inside of me, give me a reason
To stay with you, just let me know
So I can run away faster than ever before

xxx Char

Let u wel even op?

God roept u

xxx Char

Jij

Ze hebben me geleerd u te zeggen.
Ze hebben me geleerd dat er niks groter is in het universum.
Ik volgde blind was nog maar een kind
Speelde met vuur, en z’n vingers brandde aan de lucifers

en

Ik wil nu niet vechten, wil je niet langer vast keten
aan wat geschreven is met miljoenen verzen.
Ik weet dat ik je evenbeeld ben.
En als ik even stil ben,

dan weet ik dat we noch verleden, noch toekomst delen.
Noch leegte, noch eeuwige groene velden.
We moeten verder, want we kunnen het niet terug draaien.
En als het wel kon weet ik niet of ik het wel zou willen terug draaien.

-Bart van Oosten ©

xxx Char

Things I know about him:

• he always eats gum. And if he takes two pieces, it means he is going to kiss you.
  
• he's been hurt before. Big time. And I'm not letting anyone do that to him again.
• he can be really sweet and caring, but he decides to play an asshole.
• he's that guy I'd be stupid to trust and he is trouble, but I can't recist.
• deep inside he is a cute, little boy who's just looking for love.

Things I know about me:

• I'm absolutely crazy about this guy and I'm about to proof him that I'm not like his backstabbing, controlling ex-girlfriend and that I can be good enough.

xxx Char

Can I just say one more thing?

What's worse than being blindly in love
with a guy and not seeing what he really is,
is being head over heels in love with a guy
and seeing him for exactly what he really is.
The asshole, the cheater, the guy who breaks your heart
over and over again and still loving him,
and not being able to get over him.

xxx Char

Last poem my aunt wrote for me

Één sterke vreugdelijn door heel je leven
Van vroeg tot laat, altijd je trouw,
Waarop je steunen kunt én geven;
Dat is mijn wens voor jou.

Liefs van Ayka

Is it over yet?

If anyone ask
I'll tell them we both just moved on
When people all stare
I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk
Whenever I see you I'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue
Pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?

If anyone asks
I'll tell them we just grew apart
What do I care if they believe me or not
Whenever I feel your memory is breaking my heart
I'll pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong.

xxx Char

El amor esta en el aire

Love is..

( a girl and guy were speeding over 100 mph on a motorcycle)

Girl: Slow down. Im scared.
Guy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, its too scary!
Guy: Then tell me u love me.
Girl: Fine, I love u. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
(Girl hugs him)
Guy: Can u take my helmet off & put it on? Its buggin me.

In the paper the next day:
A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of break failure. 2 people were on it but only 1 survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his breaks broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him, felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so she would live even though it meant he would die

xxx
Char

Zelfportret

Milk & Coockies

Click here and I guarentee you will laugh

xxx Char

This is amazing

Klik hier

Hello babies

Welcome to Earth. It's hot in the summer and cold in the winter. It's round and wet and crowded. At the outside, babies, you've got about a hundred years here. There's only one rule that I know of, babies:

"God damn it, you've got to be kind."

xxx Char

If I were a whale..

...I'd eat boats!


X

Cause i cant make you love me if you don't

I just poured my heart out,
there's bits of it on the floor.
And i take whats left of it and
rinse it under cold water,
and call him up for more.

And I say,
"Baby, yes I feel stupid to call you,
but I'm lonely.
And I don't think you meant it when you said
you couldn't love me.
And I thought maybe that if I kissed the way you do,
then you'd feel it too."

xxx Char

Guus Meeuwis - Haven in zicht

Je laat mijn handen los
en slaat je ogen neer
je spreekt het vonnis langzaam uit
je wilt niet meer
ik zou iets willen zeggen
maar ik mis gewoon de kracht
nu je ogen niet meer blauw zijn
maar zo donker als de nacht

En ineens is het voorbij
en is er geen later
en ineens is het geen storm
in een glas water
maar een somber weerbericht
en het anker wordt gelicht
jij drijft weg met de haven in zicht

Ineens woedt er orkaankracht
op de open zee we dansen
als een speelbal op de golven mee
ik zou je willen redden
maar de zee heeft overmacht
en ik zie je verder drijven
als een schip in de nacht

En ineens is het voorbij
en is er geen later
en ineens is het geen storm
in een glas water
maar een somber weerbericht
en het anker wordt gelicht
jij drijft weg met de haven in zicht

I want the life everyone thinks I have

I don't want to cry no more & I don't want to hurt no more. I don't want to love anymore especially if it causes this. I don't want no part of it because it hurts me so bad. Even when it's sunny outside it still feels like it's raining.

I come in here and I sit in silence and hear the echoes of who we used to be. And so I wish for patience, grace and strenght to just let him be happy. Mostly I pray for the strenght to not make his life worse because of what I want. That's the toughest part, letting go. That's the part of grace that really sucks.

xxx Char