Shall I?

If you find yourself hoping to see him everyday; If you find yourself thinking of him every minute, every second; If you miss his smile, laughter and everything about him; If all you wanna do when you’re out with him is to tell him jokes and make him happy; Or if he means the world to you, it’s time that you take out some guts and ask him to be yours.

xxx Char

Happy easter!!

xxx Char

Voor Mickey

And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I’ll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that’s what you’ve given me. That’s what I hope to give to you forever. I love you.

xxx Char

If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with. You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my internet obsession, my tendency to be too clingy. You fall in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me. But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I’m with you, the way I’ll text you in the mornings just telling you I hope you have a great day. You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you. But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, despite my thinking that it is impossible.

xxx Char

I want to be a little kid again...

Sometimes I wish I could just be a little kid again. So when life gets tough you can just play pretend. I wanna go back to when Santa did exist. When your daddy was the only boy you ever kissed. When Disney World was the best place to be. When the only movies you could see were rated G. When your biggest problem was learning to write your name and people didn't change...and your friends were the same. And every time you were sad or you had a bad day. You could just run to mommy and it would all be okay. I wanna go back to no hurt...and no pain...just laughter. When everyone always lives happily ever after.

xxx Char

Things aren't what they seem

Walking down the hall with her head held high, every hair is in its place, sees a friend and she waves hi, wearing a smile on her perfect face. Friendly, smart, and beautiful, everyone adores this girl. Seemingly content, her head's in a whirl. Inside she's unhappy, and doesn't know why. She lays in her bed at night and cries. She doesn't know what causes the tears; how could this princess have insecurities or fears? She has it all. A pretty smile, many friends, a great guy, the newest trends, her family has money, and she gets good grades. Always looking happy, every single day, but inside she's feeling a different way. This is wonder girl, she's everyone's dream, but things aren't always what they seem.

xxx Char

Love this poem someone wrote for me

Charlet, Charlet, drunk on wine
You make me smile all the time
Keep writing your poems, keep on with the prose
What's really on your mind, love
No one quite knows.

(I love the fact that I don't even drink wine :P)

xxx Char

Kids, you need to know some things. First off, life isnt all about who you're dating or what you're wearing. As much as you think people care, they really don't care how perfect your hair is, or how ripped you are. Yes, you need to take care of yourself, but there are more important things in life. The world doesn't care about your 90 % average, or your first place dance award. Acne will go away, and your hair cut will grow back out. Life is meant to be fun, it's about living for moments, and not for people. Life is about how you live, not how you look. You CAN spend your weekend lying in bed watching movies, or you CAN go out and party all weekend. As long as you're enjoying life, and as long as you're happy, it doesn't matter what you're doing. If its not fun, its not worth doing. So please be yourself and enjoy life. It's too short to be miserable

xxx Char

Sometimes I feel like there's a hole inside of me, an emptiness that at times seems to burn. I think if you lifted my heart to your ear, you could probably hear the ocean. I have this dream of being whole. Of not going to sleep each night, wanting. But still sometimes, when the wind is warm or the crickets sing... I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. I just want someone to love me. I want to be seen. I don't know. Maybe I had my happiness

xxx Char

Now you know...

♥

50 things that really matter

wisdom. warm spring days. memories. honest work. faith. bubble baths.
passion. puppies. the sounds of music. seashells. candlelight.
saying "i love you". saying "i'm sorry". flowers. motherhood. a good book.
kindness. afternoon naps. friends. thunderstorms. sad movies. family.
gratitude. quiet time. independence. imagination. contentment. milestones.
hugs. sunrise. children's art. the smell of a new baby. romance. holidays.
trust. sympathy. holding hands. charity. summer nights. old dogs.
family dinners. a good cup of coffee. curiosity. a sense of wonder. hope.
companionship. home. butterflies. courage. you.

xxx Char

What a gentleman

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"I'm a gentleman, chivalry is what I do. I'll open doors, pull out your chair, buy your drinks, but when it comes down to Mario Kart, I draw the line. I'm sorry but I just can't let you beat me at Mario Kart."

(I won)

xxx

It hurts so bad..

"i don't want us to fight or go our own way, i just want us to be friends, to be stupid and annoying, i want us to scream at each other cos your boyfriend is an ars, i want to be there when you get married, divorced and married again, i want us to be anything but us. i dont know how i want it and i quite frankly can be botherd less on how we are friends, i just want you to be, babe. And i just don't want you to leave."

"I have to leave. I don't see any other option."

Goodbye babe, Vive ahora.

And then he said to me:

"Wanting you happy was always more important than just wanting you"

xxx

So we have got to get this right...

Let's say that theoretically I really like you. And theoretically even though it sounds moronically cliche and overused - you give me butterflies. And just for kicks, let's add that all in theory of course you may be one of the wonderful people I have ever met, and hypothetically my heart beats ten times faster when I see you. Do you think that you would supposedly (and in the most theoretical sense) feel the same way?

xxx

My future

I may still not know what I want to be when I grow up, but I do know that someday
I want to live in a house filled with my books and travel souvenirs.
And the walls that aren’t covered in bookshelves will be covered with photos of my family and friends. When I leave the house I will be going to a job I love,
and I’ll return to a person I love. So, that’s the dream I’m working on.

xxx Char